Cheryl Cole never wanted to appear on the US version of X Factor but producer Simon Cowell pushed her in doing the show. Cole was later replaced by Singer Nicole Scherzinger for the singing reality show. "I never actually wanted to do the American show, I'm not a TV star. I had so many reservations, but he pushed me into doing it. He told me I'd be a star over there. And then he didn't give me a chance to prove myself. I was gone after four days. I have no idea what I'm going to do now. My life has been turned upside down. They have treated me really badly," contactmusic.com quoted Cole as saying. Cole, who is currently in London with her mother, is refusing to take calls of the TV mogul and has told friends that she may even take a break from all TV work. "A big part of me wants to disappear. I love my family and friends. I'll be OK without working for a while. X Factor isn't my world. It's not the be-all and end-all of my career," Cole said.